Just Pee On The Sidewalk

I Gotta Feeling

Wed, 28 Oct 2009 13:00:00 +0800

Damn was I in a ditch. Read the last post. Embarrassing.

Not to say I still don’t feel the same, but hell, that was a bad day.

AUSTRALIA HERE I COME!

IMA PWN YOUR BITCH ASS!

Chocolate Love

Fri, 23 Oct 2009 01:56:00 +0800

Been watching lots of movies lately… rewatching others… of course, there’s no such word, rewatching, but who gives a shit… if there’s one thing safenglish has taught me, when it comes to communication, so long as intent is delivered, the noise you make matters nuts…

But yes, movies.

They all have something in common… movies…. discard the horror genre and you get happy endings. All of them… they have to be…. happy…. endings, that is….

They’re our escape. There’s nothing in them but a reflection of our desires… a happy resolution to a string of complexities that is our lives…

We never get them though.

The happy resolution doesn’t exist… a happy hiatus maybe… but not a resolution. A resolution implies conclusion, a conclusion, of our lives at least… that means death… and given the temporal nature of the human life, that’s never something to be completely happy about…

The movies end with him getting the job he wanted…. life goes on and the job goes on to wear him.

The movies end with the bad guy dead…. life goes on to introduce other adversaries.

The movies end with him getting the girl…. life goes on with relationship issues and all.

The movies end with weddings and white and cake and fluffy happy…. life goes on with arguments, quarrels and unfortunate divorces.

Granted though, the divorces are more like white towels than real troubles.

And everyone knows this… they long for the happy endings the movies show, but really, we all know that even stories don’t really end with the endings. We’re given a conclusion to a complication but the characters, the plot, really, they could go on much further….

I know this…

But God, I am tired. I don’t want a temporary breather, I finally want something to be really happy about… I want a conclusion to the current complication…. I don’t crave death. I have too much to live for. No. I crave the death of this immediate source of pain… this tumour in my ass…. I want it removed…. the follow up chemo might be tiring…. arduous even…. but right now, i just want it removed.

Really, sometimes I disgust myself…. self-pitying…. whiny….. just the qualities I despise…. pathetic…. and the excuses just keep self-generating…..

I need an immediate intravenous transfusion of tenacity.

RIGHT ROUND

Sun, 12 Jul 2009 00:15:00 +0800

I should shoot him. He’s very much dead.

Yes my log is male. The macho male ego welled-up in my nutsac will never allow me to endow it with a female gender.

And even if he’d been a she, it’d be a very attractive one.

Very many usage of the generic pronouns.

Got abit of time with the camera today. On cielo’s past orders I gave it a name. I can’t remember the last name but it’s now Xzibit, after one of the great contemporary african american poets.

Got abit of time with the weights. Foolish seeing as I’m in teh army. Which is essentially an incubator for the sexy bodies. But yeah, that step closer to Flo-Rida.

This isn’t a post. This is a log of the day’s events. Shame on me.

Reflection Time:

I got nothing.

I have learnt that accountability and responsibility are two polar aspects of integrity. And that...

Sat, 23 May 2009 09:02:19 +0800

I have learnt that accountability and responsibility are two polar aspects of integrity.

And that while I may possess some of the former, I lack much of the latter.

Pain Pain go awayStay away for that I pray Pain Pain go awayStay away for that I pray

Fri, 22 May 2009 22:18:54 +0800

Pain Pain go away
Stay away for that I pray

Ok, so i lied. But this is pretty ass funny. (For the record,...

Sat, 09 May 2009 20:40:40 +0800

Ok, so i lied. But this is pretty ass funny.

(For the record, if you’re reading this a year or so from now, this was done at the height of the swine scare)

jlcaines: A classmate’s photo of a class outside Gelatissimo at...

Fri, 08 May 2009 23:23:57 +0800

jlcaines:

A classmate’s photo of a class outside Gelatissimo at the Singapore Flyer on a Saturday Night. “The Happy Factory” for more than obvious reasons.

This shall be the last for awhile. Hiatus here I come.

"Tough times don’t last. Tough people do."

Sat, 04 Apr 2009 20:42:00 +0800

“

Tough times don’t last.

Tough people do.

”

- Gregory Peck

"The easiest day was yesterday"

Sat, 04 Apr 2009 20:41:42 +0800

“The easiest day was yesterday”

OCS here I come…

Sat, 21 Mar 2009 11:10:07 +0800

OCS here I come…

I’m so happy to end this phase.

Thu, 12 Mar 2009 20:34:00 +0800

I’m so happy to end this phase.

Interlude

Thu, 12 Mar 2009 20:26:00 +0800

jibwire:

so to the two people out there who actually read this, there is a comments link down below each post. it usually says nada but you can make it say 1 and feel happy for it and yourself. and maybe add another to make it 2.

i’m done being shameless now.

Hrm yes…tumble blogs and the whole no comments thing… looks like I’m not the only one of such said annoyance/problem. Although NS is more to blame for my lack of interesting fun filled posts and crazy hiatus…

It does however feel more shameful to declare this a problem than it is annoying to have the problem. Like having a blister on the bottom of your foot just before setting off on some 7 hour stroll with 1500 other males and a pet midget on your back.

On hindsight, much of the bmt experience can be said to be rather ~~homosexual~~ bonding in terms of brotherhood. It is, however, a slight relief (less of lower body nature and more of fresh air in lungs nature although it could be understandably mistaken for the former) that there were female recruits.

In the whopping numbers of 2.

I think NS is a clever ploy to enhance the hormonal drive of all 18 year olds to ensure continual reproduction of new Singaporeans. The desperation of the singles in camp might be comparable to a wasteland compound of rabid dogs on killer baboon steroids…

I need to watch The Watchmen.

Video

Fri, 06 Mar 2009 20:39:01 +0800

Book Out, Book In Not much happening but the army. Like a face full of pimples really. Squeeze...

Sun, 01 Mar 2009 00:37:05 +0800

Book Out, Book In

Not much happening but the army.

Like a face full of pimples really. Squeeze one, it hurts, pain ends, it feels good but then you’d have to go on and squeeze another again. Just one hurdle after another.

But Singapore is Singapore and NS is NS…

So i’ll just suck on my little thumb and get on with it.

Thank you Lord, I am now a 40 pointer and of all the times for such news, you sure are one brilliant...

Sat, 07 Feb 2009 23:31:53 +0800

Thank you Lord, I am now a 40 pointer and of all the times for such news, you sure are one brilliant scheduler.

So for now, I celebrate.

Then back to training.

Photo

Sat, 07 Feb 2009 22:55:45 +0800

I realise the bountiful amount of under-rated, under-stated characters in the marvel storyline. Take...

Sun, 01 Feb 2009 14:01:00 +0800

I realise the bountiful amount of under-rated, under-stated characters in the marvel storyline. Take for example, the story of Agent Zero (David North) or Deadpool. Tragic Anti-Heroes, extremely unfortunate to have such creative writers and bloodthirsty readers.

Then there are so many over-rated jackoffs. *Cue entrance of Cyclops, Sabretooth, e.t.c*

This bout of reflection was brought on by the repetitive viewing of Wolverine’s new trailer.

i think ill give it up.

Sat, 31 Jan 2009 23:25:51 +0800

i think ill give it up.

I feel stupid.

Fri, 30 Jan 2009 20:48:54 +0800

I feel stupid.

For the convenience of the higher ups. Once again, I am tagged as a string of digits. Register...

Mon, 26 Jan 2009 18:30:44 +0800

For the convenience of the higher ups. Once again, I am tagged as a string of digits.

There’s a worrying lack of use of names in life…